Wednesday, 6 March 2019

Ashtanga Asian Tour

The life I have chosen is a free one.

I do not have a "home", a monthly rent to pay, a loan, therefore I do not have any official address. My company has a domiciliation at my accountant office.

I am spending more than half a year in Asia, travelling to India, Thailand, Bali and when time comes I go back to France for a couple of months.

This year I will be travelling to Bangkok where I will be practicing at Ashtanga Yoga Bangkok for 2 weeks, before flying to Nepal where I will be attending Mark Robberds and Deepika Mehta Ashtanga Retreat.

Then from Nepal, I took the decision to travel to Hanoï, never been to Vietnam and always wanted to travel there.

I have found an Ashtanga Yoga Studio, it is a small community, but the teacher does not seem to be authorized. And you know what, even though I would have prefer, I think it really does not matter after all.

The importance is about the practice and the dedication toward it.

By the end of 2018 I turned 45 years old, and I am still amaze by what my body can do.

November and December practices have been quite challenging. Left shoulder was deadly painful, I had the feeling that the pectoralis was stuck somewhere not in the right place. Then the right shoulder start doing weird thing as well...... I was filming a small tutorial for my IG account about Supta Kurmasana, and right after it my right shoulder start hurting....

What a bad idea to film your practice AFTER the practice !

The feeling I have is that my collar bone seemed to be stuck somewhere..... I have lost part of flexibility for twisting in Marichyasana D for instance, still I can bind, but the twist is definitely not the same I used to have....

While in Goa I am practicing on my own, at my own pace, sometimes I just don't practice at all for 2 or 3 days, instead I go for a one hour swim. I used to be a swimmer before Ashtanga. So going back to crawl was really hard at the beginning, because of the shoulder pain, but in the end it did good to my scapular belt.

Now the flexibility in my body is just something I was not expected at all..... very very very soft and flexible.

I will  be documenting my Nepal practice.

I have stopped writing about it, because my practice was reaching a point of no return. And I did not understand what was going on.

But now, I feel something is about to come, in my all body and therefore my mind.

I also have started Bakthi Yoga, and this definitely change a lot of my perspectives.

Be happy !

- Namaste -

Thursday, 20 December 2018

New Blog Xandra Yoga

New articles are now published on my website :

I am still pursuing my yoga path, by practicing daily Ashtanga Yoga.

Right now in Ubud with Iain Grysak.

Then before travelling to Nepal for practicing with Mark Robberds I will stop by Ashtanga Yoga in Bangkok.

And hopefully, when registrations will be open for 2020 I am hoping to visit Mysore again.

Through the practice I am still learning a lot, mostly about myself.

It is funny to realise how much the way we are in our daily life is reflecting on the way we are on our yoga mat.

In a couple of days I am turning 45 years old.

20 years of yoga practice, and almost 3 years of full dedication toward the Ashtanga Yoga Vinyasa.

I feel younger.

My body is stronger, almost aligned and I am getting a clarity of mind that I would never ever imagined.

My "goal" is not anymore about being capable of backbending and grabbing my ankles, or chasing new asanas.

Slowly but surely I am walking toward a meeting point with myself, the real me.

I am about to understand the woman I am....

And it is priceless.


Wednesday, 14 November 2018

Miracle morning - the practice is back.....

Miracle of the body, the practice, the mind.....

This morning Marichyasana D, both side = done,
Supta Kurmasana = done.

I have absolutely no explanations about it.

After 5 days (one led class, one day off, 4 Mysore), it seems that my body is responded well.

Yesterday I read an article that Iain posted in his facebook page :

"More than once, I have heard people comment that the fact that I can perform certain asanas or movements well is simply due to the fact that I am "gifted with good genes". If only those people could begin to grasp the staggering number of hours that I have spent alone, in the dark, training those movements to take root in my body and nerves.
Scientific tests were performed on Reinhold Messner to determine whether he had some kind of innate abnormal physiology which allowed him perform the feats of mountaineering that he accomplished (he was the first to summit Mt. Everest without supplemental oxygen). Alex Honnold, the legendary rock climber who scaled the 3000 foot El Capitan without a rope (which has been referred to as "one of the greatest athletic feats of any kind, ever") was also subjected to brain scans to determine whether he lacked an average level of fear response to threatening situations.
These are only a few select examples of the unfortunate illusion that the paradigm of genetic reductionism has on the general public's perception of what is and isn't possible for a human being to change about themselves through lifestyle and focused and determined long term training.
I hold a degree in Biology and Psychology and did my undergraduate thesis on molecular evolution. More importantly, in the 20 years since then I have lived an experiential life, experimenting on myself and on others with just what is possible to change about oneself through determined cultivation of habit and lifestyle.
Genes are only one small factor in the greater system of who and what each living being is. Our choices and habits in life have a much greater effect on the sphere of who and what we are, than the base pair sequences of dna contained in our cells does. We all have the power to be the best we can possibly be, both individually and collectively."

It really resonates in me "We all have the power to be the best we can possibly be"......

Honestly speaking, when I woke up this morning, I was not in a fighting mode, but more with the feeling of being able to do whatever I wanted.

And it worked. I stop thinking my practice, I just practiced it.


Tuesday, 13 November 2018

Ashtanga yoga loosing the practice

Is it possible to loose the practice, completely?

My body is different.

I don't recognise it.

How can it have changed so much is such a short time?

It takes so much time and commitment to build a practice, but as soon as you stop the daily practice, it is finished... how is it possible???

Here is my Marichyasana D from April 2018 :

At that time I was able to twist and to grab the wrist.

Then from September to October I kind of stop the practice on a daily basis. Honestly speaking I did practice maybe 6 times on the last 2 months, other than that I was practicing my own flow, doing whatever felt good for me.

Now that I am coming back to my daily Mysore practice, I have lost Marichyasana D on the right side..... the left side was difficult to twist thought...... AND of the top of it, I have lost Supta Kurmasana....

Not to mention that Janu Shirshasana C on the left side is not possible anymore.

Hopefully my body will react on a positive way, at one point I can not regress more in my practice, or can I?

Will see tomorrow morning.....


Saturday, 10 November 2018

Ashtanga Yoga Ubud - The Seeds of Life

So happy to be back on my mat. After 6 months in Europe I kind of lost my practice.

The practice in Greece was great with Kristina Karitinou but since September I had problems going back on the mat.

I realised that my body was meant to practice under tropical weather. Whatever we said, practicing Ashtanga Yoga with a humid and hot weather is definitely the best thing to do. 

The body response is completely different, the sweat is there and muscles are very happy.

Of course I am back to practice under the guidance of Iain Grysak. I have to admit yesterday when I joined the led class I was slightly ashamed as my body has changed since last time I was there.

I gained 4 kilos, all on my hips, therefore I can not bind anymore in Supta Kurmasana. Yes size makes the difference.

When hips are wider is it way more difficult to bind, that is so obvious.

Outside of it, I found more and more important to commit to the practice with one teacher and only one.

Lately I have been practicing with different teachers, with all respect to them, they did not have that much of knowledge or maybe it was not suitable for me.

In France there is not a lot of good teachers, to my personal opinion. And the practice is so different, atmosphere is different as well.

I have received an awful adjustment from a teacher, which wake up my sit bone pain. It was so bad that I could not practice anything for at least 3 weeks.

When you start practicing with one teacher, and you talked to him, then he will understand what are your possibilities and will notice good days from bad days.

We can not have the same practice daily, some days are harder than others, and that is the problem I encountered while in Europe. 

The teacher wanted my left leg fully lengthen while I could not, then he did not understand that usually I do, but not this time. So he came and force me to use the full capacity of my left leg, which was already in pain. I did not stay quiet, I talked to him but it seems that he did not get my point.

For instance, I know that I won't have that problem with Iain. 

So as they say "One teacher, one student". At the beginning I did not like the idea and the more I am practicing the more I understand that point.

Have a good practice!


Sunday, 10 June 2018

Ashtanga Yoga Crète

I am still doing my world wide tour of Ashtanga ;-)

I travelled to Greece only to practice with Kristina Karitinou. This morning was the opening of the season and I was the only one student!

It was such a privilege to practice alone under her guidance.

My breathing was not that good, especially I always found it very hard during the Suraya Namaskara B, when inhaling going to Virabhadrasana I, most of the time I am out of breathe. But when you are the only one in the shala there is no way to hide, therefore I tried my level best to extend all breathe but was not fully successful.

She gave me a lot of tips, such as when going in Adho Mukha, instead of looking right away to my navel, taking an extra breath by looking forward to extend it and then exhaling toward the navel. It was nice.

Also while bending the knee she explains, each time I am bending my knee to janu shirshasana for instance, when I place the foot it should be on inhalation and while bending the knee should be done on exhalation. Easy on the paper, but thinking of doing it for all janu series and marichyasana series was not that easy.

She explained that when we bend the knee on the inhalation we are blocking it, therefore we hurt our knee, as while you exhale it is releasing all tensions that might rise toward the joint.

Adding extra breathing was not that easy but highly beneficial, all my movement were connecting through a proper breathing, which I should have done before because I knew it, but to be honest I am not doing it properly. So having special attention to it was really helpful but keeping the focus was really hard.

I will be in Greece until July 10th.... and will probably come back on September.

Very happy to follow the Ashtanga Yoga Path, each time I am digging it that path, each time I realise that I don't know anything.... it is always a reboot, no place for ego...

Have a good practice !

- Namaste -

Thursday, 19 April 2018

Practice with Damien de Bastier and Andréa

I left Ubud for Canggu. We are conducting with Trupta a Yoga Retreat at Samadi Bali, therefore I took advantage of being there to practice with Damien and Andréa.

The Mysore Classes are not fully packed, which is really enjoyable, Damien was there for the first week then Andréa is now taking it.

I never practiced with a woman Ashtangi before, and she is absolutely wonderful. I love her adjustments in Marychasana D, the way she is pressing her foot on mine to make my spine twisted slightly deeper is just amazing.

I did work my backbend with Damien, a different approach from Ian and Steven, therefore I am learning a lot, and specially I understood that my legs were too weak.

Right now I stopped the drop back and work in depth the backbend from my mat, getting closer to my feet day by day.

The jump back from Bakasana to Chaturanga came back, I was happy.

My jump front are really really improving, actually I can do it easily without touching the mat, uncrossing my leg directly to Dandasana with the tiny lift before bringing my sitbone on the mat. I would never imagine that one day I would have done it, but yes !

However jump back from sitting pose are still in process.

Mark Robberds and Deepika are coming from time to time for their practices. It was nice to see them and awesome to have Mark practicing next to me. From Mark I am still learning how to jump back using Lolasana, one day I did one successfully however this day never happened again.

Ashtanga Yoga Practice is definitely a path, a full dedication, progress is coming in and out.... the all idea is to accept both way. One day it will be great, the next day it will not.

Once you accept it, then you can move forward easily wether in your practice or even with yourself.

The relationship between the practitioner and the yoga mat and the practice is always in evolution, we think we know while we don't and finally we acknowledge fully that we do not know anything ;-)

Enjoy your practice !